In a raw and emotional message shared just a day after the BET Awards, Ray J revealed his struggle with suicidal thoughts, sparking concern among his fans.
The singer and TV personality took to Instagram on Monday to air his grievances, describing himself as being at a “breaking point” following a tense altercation with Zeus Network CEO Lemuel Plummer.
“I’m really at a breakin point!” Ray J wrote.
“To provide for my family and have generational wealth was always the plan, But money is evil, and people are bad, and I can’t take it anymore. These chains of reactions are stemming from being locked in a false reality/confused by this whole life! The shit that happened tonight to me at the wards today was hurtful. I’m working backstage, and then I go take a break in the back and BET wouldn’t let me back in for some reason,” he continued.
I don’t know who they didn’t want me to see. It was weird.”
Ray J continued, expressing deep distress and the impact on his mental state: “I’m on my way out of the country. The shit that is happening is mind-blowing. It’s making me suicidal and uncomfortable with the perception of reality.”
“THEY PAID ME TO SHUT UP, AND I DID! I FEEL BAD, AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT! I DONT WANT ANYMORE OF YOUR DIRTY MONEY! And B4! Or Right after I die, I promise you I will be free of it all, and the world can move on with what is real for me no matter the consequences I have to face on the other side!!”
He also issued a heartfelt apology to his sister, Brandy.
“I TRIED TO DO IT FOR REAL LAST TIME! I’m sorry to myself and [my] sister, sorry Bran, I will make it right, I won’t let them get away with it! I TOLD THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME THAT I FELT LIKE SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAppen FUCK IT I SAID IT.”
According to TMZ, Ray J’s post came hours after he was involved in a near-fight outside GloRilla’s BET Awards Afterparty in Los Angeles. The actor and a Zeus Network Executive were yelling about fighting each other as bodyguards scrambled to keep them apart.
Ray J threw a punch but didn’t hit anyone.
The situation intensified when he retrieved a backpack from his car and briefly re-entered the crowd, alarming onlookers who feared he might have a weapon. Thankfully, his team convinced him to return to his vehicle, and they departed without further incident.
Ray J swung on Lemmy outside of Glorilla’s #BETAwards2024 after party ???? What do you think Ray J had in that backpack? ???? pic.twitter.com/Q5smwoJm8K
— The Baddies Space (@BaddiesSpace) July 1, 2024
In May, Ray J accused Plummer of exploiting and manipulating women into sleeping with him so they could appear on a Zeus Network Series, even threatening legal action against him.
Addressing these allegations in June, Ray J told The Breakfast Club, “I don’t like when people are doing people wrong and making them do shows for certain things that they shouldn’t. That would be foul, that would be inhumane. These are facts. I have the footage. I have a lot of stuff that he’s been doing. Now it’s time to do what we’re doing now, and that’s legally do the right thing.
If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, help is available. Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org.
