Metal health is so real and rapper Chika has many of her fans very concerned over her recent public posts.
On her Instastory she wrote:
i went to the top of the intercontinental, but could not jump. not because i
don’t want to, but because the metal stairs were scary. that’s the thing
about having a fucked up brain.
no matter how much pain you are in, there
will always be something to hold you back.
i know you guys are tired of me holding back. it’s draining & sad. it looks like crying wolf. but it is not. it’s
just difficult to find the right way. the quickest way. the painless way.
i am tired of myself, too. i don’t need anyone feeling bad or worried be i failed the last time i tried. save your emotions for when i succeed.
it will be the first time i got what i wanted in its entirety. the first time ill be okay
having no help.
the one thing i was capable of doing on my own. i think I am supposed to be a cautionary tale of sorts. what happens when no one listens.
what happens when you leave a broken person to their own devices. what happens when you think people are too capable to fail.
we have icarus and we have me. one few too close to the sun & one couldn’t even conquer metal stairs only 20 feet away from eternal freedom.
i will find that freedom somehow today. i am not sorry to let peoole down.
i refuse to die carrying the burdens of people who could not share my own. i refuse to take this pressure to the grave.
i refuse to continue to deceive myself into believing things are meant to get better. i knew everything in my life
betore it happened. ask my mom and dad. they heard me predict my life.
was not wrong and i am still not wrong. i am not speaking things into
existence, 1 am speaking of what already exists.
the story. the narrative. the ebbs and flows. the saga. i was never meant to win. i was meant to show
someone else they can. i do not forgive anyone, and i do not want anyone to forgive me. except my best friend Cole & my immediate family. mom dad sistees, that’s it.
they shouldn’t have to hurt when remembering me. that really fucking sucks and i’m a piece of shit for that. i know it but my hurting matters to, even if only to me. thank you to the nice lady in MN who gave me a hug. that kindness and selflessness is needed in the world…
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In 2021 Chika had a similar scare after deactivating her social media after posting a string of alarming tweets.
On Sunday (April 18, 2021), CHIKA returned to the social media platform and assured her fans she was on the mend.
“I am alive. I am okay,” Chika wrote in a post. “Thank you to everyone who has reached out to check in. It’s been a very intense week. I’m not retiring. After what I’ve endured in the past few days, I’m not ever allowing anything to stop me or almost take me from this ghetto ass earth.”
At that time she also thanked Cardi B who reached out to her during those moments:
“Thank you, @iamcardib for reaching out & showing such kindness to me in a time I don’t even think you knew was as serious as it was. You’ve always shown love to me & don’t think I could take that for granted. You’re appreciated.”
Twitter is showing her so much love, and we pray she sees the encouraging words.
you are loved. you are love. no one can take that from you. pain is miserable, a thief of your peace. but you will find serenity again here with us, the best that is meant for you is still to come. i believe in you, please stay ?♓️
— sadie (@sandiespoons) March 26, 2022
and
hey love, i really want you to stay with us. idk when you’ll see this, but let’s talk if you’re open to it. there’s always an open line on my end ?
— BAD MOM (@RayanaJay) March 26, 2022
and
You are Loved more than you know by people you’ve never personally met and so many more. We Love You and You are Not Alone. Sending an Abundance of Peace, Love, Light, Stillness and Pure People to surround you with Support in your time of need.
— Noir Majic ?✨ (@NoirMajic) March 26, 2022
and
Praying the hedge of protection prayer over you. I know there are battles you face, that may be overwhelming and may not know how you’re going to overcome https://t.co/KjOVUDPMd9’re stronger than you’ll ever know! Sending love and light!
— Vybez (@empress_se7en) March 26, 2022
We are truly praying for Chika.
update:
Chika tweeted that she is alive and leaving the hospital.
alive. wanna go home.
— CHIKA ????????♂️ (@oranicuhh) March 27, 2022
and
leaving the hospital. not that i should care about updating anyone besides family. i just wanna be left alone, if that’s okay. i appreciate the prayers and stuff. thanks.
— CHIKA ????????♂️ (@oranicuhh) March 27, 2022
Continuing to pray for her and hoping she gets the help she needs.
